And he gave me friends
A melancholy post today.
I have just come from a memorial service. An ex-classmate and co-worker of mine committed suicide the other day and tonight we all met by a lake in a park, prayed together and remembered her. She was 32, just lost her boyfriend to murder, and was funny and smart, and appeared not to care what anyone thought of her. We were not close, but we were friendly. Many of my current close friends were close to her, and some of my favorite old law school drinking buddies loved her dearly.
So tonight the message for me is complex. She chose this end, so I pray for peace for her. But it breaks my heart to see all who loved her hurt. I am thankful for all of you who love me and who I love. I think of those who feel alone. This girl had a hundred friends and felt alone, and some of us with few friends are never lonely.
Each day is a gift and a chance to be grateful for all we have. I spend a lot of time wanting things like cute clothes and a thinner waist. Yet, I have more than most. I do.
My dear friends. Those that have been through it all with me, and love me unconditionally, even when I am annoying and selfish. Those who I can call in the middle of the night and cry my eyes out or ask for a ride, and they'd do it. I have a million faults, but there are a number of friends that love me anyway. Some will hold my hand to my last breath, some will laugh and travel with me, some will listen and advise me when I am being an idiot. They have big beautiful hearts, and are selfless and strong. They are flawed and vunerable. But they all love me and me love them, and I am so blessed to know and have each and every one of them.
Indiana: Her true spirit. Her heart of gold and uplifting smile and silly ways, she is sunshine on super fast and strong legs.
DC: Honesty and humor, brains and generousity. THoughtful and one of the funniest and gassiest girls I have ever met.
West coast: Keeps it real, sensitive, strong, sincere, and tells it like it is. Hip, funny, beautiful and so smart.
LaidBack: my first friend in AZ, the most GENUINE and kind person I have ever known, to everyone she meets. Brilliant, simple, and honest. She is what I wish I was.
Tall and Lovely: Gorgeous, sweet, hilarious, worry wart, and brainiac. She keeps her circle close and if she chooses to love you, you are one of the chosen few, and I am blessed to be one.
Kirkatown: Honest, sometimes quiet, sometimes a nut, cute as a button and as loyal as they come. Genuine and smart, and she is a rock. I miss her when I dont see her, but she too is what I wish I was.
Rock: Been there forever. Knows me like only old friends can, supportive, and sweet, funny, and she inspires me to keep on looking at myself and keep growing. She is introspective and not too afraid to be... and I love that.
Lu: my soul sistah. Honest, strong, smart, stubborn, beautiful, moral, always learning, always wiggling, funny, loyal, and genuine. The whole package. I would be realms behind who I am today without that girl. God gave her to me to be my best bf ever!
And all the rest of the friends that I have, old and new. Fiance and family and co-workers too. But I am just feeling overwhelmed with gratefulness and love. I thank the lord for each one!
May he show me how to reciprocate.
I have just come from a memorial service. An ex-classmate and co-worker of mine committed suicide the other day and tonight we all met by a lake in a park, prayed together and remembered her. She was 32, just lost her boyfriend to murder, and was funny and smart, and appeared not to care what anyone thought of her. We were not close, but we were friendly. Many of my current close friends were close to her, and some of my favorite old law school drinking buddies loved her dearly.
So tonight the message for me is complex. She chose this end, so I pray for peace for her. But it breaks my heart to see all who loved her hurt. I am thankful for all of you who love me and who I love. I think of those who feel alone. This girl had a hundred friends and felt alone, and some of us with few friends are never lonely.
Each day is a gift and a chance to be grateful for all we have. I spend a lot of time wanting things like cute clothes and a thinner waist. Yet, I have more than most. I do.
My dear friends. Those that have been through it all with me, and love me unconditionally, even when I am annoying and selfish. Those who I can call in the middle of the night and cry my eyes out or ask for a ride, and they'd do it. I have a million faults, but there are a number of friends that love me anyway. Some will hold my hand to my last breath, some will laugh and travel with me, some will listen and advise me when I am being an idiot. They have big beautiful hearts, and are selfless and strong. They are flawed and vunerable. But they all love me and me love them, and I am so blessed to know and have each and every one of them.
Indiana: Her true spirit. Her heart of gold and uplifting smile and silly ways, she is sunshine on super fast and strong legs.
DC: Honesty and humor, brains and generousity. THoughtful and one of the funniest and gassiest girls I have ever met.
West coast: Keeps it real, sensitive, strong, sincere, and tells it like it is. Hip, funny, beautiful and so smart.
LaidBack: my first friend in AZ, the most GENUINE and kind person I have ever known, to everyone she meets. Brilliant, simple, and honest. She is what I wish I was.
Tall and Lovely: Gorgeous, sweet, hilarious, worry wart, and brainiac. She keeps her circle close and if she chooses to love you, you are one of the chosen few, and I am blessed to be one.
Kirkatown: Honest, sometimes quiet, sometimes a nut, cute as a button and as loyal as they come. Genuine and smart, and she is a rock. I miss her when I dont see her, but she too is what I wish I was.
Rock: Been there forever. Knows me like only old friends can, supportive, and sweet, funny, and she inspires me to keep on looking at myself and keep growing. She is introspective and not too afraid to be... and I love that.
Lu: my soul sistah. Honest, strong, smart, stubborn, beautiful, moral, always learning, always wiggling, funny, loyal, and genuine. The whole package. I would be realms behind who I am today without that girl. God gave her to me to be my best bf ever!
And all the rest of the friends that I have, old and new. Fiance and family and co-workers too. But I am just feeling overwhelmed with gratefulness and love. I thank the lord for each one!
May he show me how to reciprocate.
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