Cheer me up Scotty!

Dude! I am feeling blue. Big ass zit attached to my left cheek. Hair completely uncooperative today. Desperate need of a tan, still fat as ever. I'm constantly tired, eating things I shouldn't. Laid on my bed, totally dressed for work, for a good 30 minutes trying to come up with scheme to get out of going. Nothing seems interesting. Can't snap out of it. I am being a total jerk to fiance. I'm just a piece of work right now. I need an infusion of good stuffs. Not alcohol, not yummy treats. It's sunny and warm out. I have a positive balance in my checking account for once. I dragged my fat butt to gym twice this week already. What gives?

I think it's work. I kinda hate it. It's all negative and whiny. No progress. Just more work and no results. And the sad stories I deal with everyday. It wears my shit out. I've seen my fair share of jacked-up stuff, but this is overwhelming. And all the people in place to help....just point fingers and spit venom. It's like working with family!

Listening to good music, watching favorite movies....nothing helping. Need a big long nap I think. I went home last weekend, and saw best friend this weekend... so I shouldn't be homesick. Maybe I am just troubled that best friend is going through an indescribable bad time. I got NO business complaining about depression. I shoudl be grateful for all I have. I am, but still feeling sad and blue. A bit angry and grumpy mixed with fat and ugly. Makes for good times!