May as well eat some worms.

I need to get a grip. Since Friday I have been really paranoid about my bos being mad at me. I did wrong, and I know it. That's that. But I also did not react to my scolding as seriously as I should have I think. Maybe not.

On Friday, I left early. As a supervisor, we were all told to not do this as an example. I did it because I had not had lunch and I had a quick errand. Anyway, my boss called me and my staff apparently tried to "cover" for me. This was amplified by the fact that I had just given them a directive to screen my calls better. Anyway,they called me and I called her. She was quite upset. Not for me leaving, but more that they were evasive, and for her original reason for calling. I told her I would call Monday. I did not on Monday morning, since I was in a frenzy. I ran into her in the afternoon at a Valentine thing... and it was weird. (I think.) Maybe not, I am just so worried about being in trouble or her not liking me, that I am totally paranoid. I asked her if the issues could wait till our regularly scheduled time to meet... she said yes. I had said, or I can come right now. SHe said wait.

I emailed her that I addressed the issues with the people and that I would give her a full briefing at the time. That I consider this an issue and important, and that I do not mean for her to feel like I am delaying. No response from her. I did sign off "till wednesday-- "

Now something very important has come up, and I may need to bail out of our meeting and I am so stressed! I wish she would have respnded to my email! Instead I am a ball of nerves.

I wish I could understand why I am so worried. I am new, two months on the job. I know she is a strong person and reasonable... I just feel so paranoid. I would easily accept a write-up or something, but I can't handle her not liking me. Is that normal?